More Than Just a Number

I really really struggle with the number on the scale. It does not like to move for me no matter what.  It frustrates me so much that I end up weighing myself approximately 3-5 times a day.

I know - Completely unhealthy.

I am breaking up with my scale (kinda) I will weigh myself once per day this week and then I am going to cut back to every other day and then hopefully get to a once a week.  Breaking addictions are hard to do.

I've come to realize that even though the scale hasn't moved for me in a couple of weeks, I have lost 5" off my waist! FIVE FREAKING INCHES!!!!!!!!

I feel great. My clothes are fitting better!  Maybe someday soon I will comfortable enough to share my photos with you but for now, I'm still re-building my confidence!

Feeding an addiction

For months I have been going nuts about not being able to run because I am recovering from an injury (I am sure that I have driven my husband and close friends bat-shit crazy about it) I sucked it up (so I won't have to suck it in) and bought a pool membership. 

The first time I went I wore my two piece tankini bathing suit - well it must be a little small cause every lap I swam either the top rolled up or the bottoms slid down (Now there is a mental image I am sure you didn't need) I swam for almost 1/2 hour. I would rotate between laps and treading water (running) in the deep end.  I was so week that I could only do 10 laps before I would need to tread or run.

The second time I went I bought myself a one piece (the sight of my thighs in the mirror of the store scared myself) Felt just a bit stronger when I was swimming plus I wasn't worried about body parts escaping ;)

Then I went last night and man what a difference it made I can now do 20 laps before I need to switch to treading.

Just that small advance in a stronger body felt so good!  I know that I am ready to lose this weight this time. Its finally clicked and its all about me! My eating has been pretty good, keeping the portion sizes normal & treating myself once in a while so I don't feel deprived.  That's the key isn't - don't deprive yourself.  It will just make you feel worse about yourself in the long run and cut out the negative self talk.

Well it's off to the pool for me!

My Monday

Gonna take a look at what my days normally look like. Now today is a stay at home cleaning day.   Normally cleaning would only take a person a little while - however every 10-15 minutes I have to sit so that I don't trash my back.  

A day in my life:

6-6:55 - Get K ready for school - Check
6:55-7:45 - J & my breakfast - Check
7:45-9 - Unload & reload dishes, start today's laundry (Towels)
9-10 - Wash glasses and big pots by hand & more laundry
10-11 - Clean counters and tables and any other flat surface off - So it's 10:16 and I am just starting on the last chore - it's gonna be a long day!
11-12 - Quick tidy in bathroom & living room & more laundry (beginning to see a trend here)
12-1 - Sweep & start lunch prep (Finally caught back up to my time frame!)
1-2 - Sort laundry and put in that persons room - Yeah, this one ain't getting done today. My back is done!
2-3 - Spend one on one time with J & one more load of laundry (tempted to join nudist colony)
3-4 - Homework
4-5 - Supper Prep
5-6:15 - Supper
6:30-7:30 - Youth Group
7:45 - Bedtime for K & J
8-8:45 workout & shower
Then finally I get time to relax with the hubz

Just cause I am a stay at home momma ~ That doesn't mean I don't have a full day! 

To Shake or not to Shake

I have been using Visalus shake since the beginning of the Year.  At first I loved the shakes, the taste and all the different concoctions.  However, I've come to realize - they aren't magic - you still gotta work effing hard to make the weight disappear.  While on Visalus - I lost 7 lbs.....This is not a huge number and it sure as heck ain't a large enough number for me to fork over $116 every month.  So, like I said, they aren't magical - they are just a good tasting calorie controlled meal replacement - nothing special in them. I made the choice today to stop the shakes, my stomach wasn't handling them well.  Where do I go from here?

Well I guess it's back to Calorie counting and watching my portion sizes.  I am going to try and keep my eating as clean as possible - I WILL not give cheese up ;)

Today is my first day back at eating "real" food so here is my breakfast - plain & boring - but it keeps it easy!

I must tell you those are some big A$$ strawberries! Breakfast weighs in at 327 Calories.  And my first bottle of water is down the hatch!.