Work What Your Mamma Gave You

I have been blessed, by both genes and gaining weight to have ginormous boobs.  There I said it.  I have been wanting to have a breast reduction done for YEARS.  at a HH cup they are killing my back & my pocket book (1 bra = $80) I actually got up the nerve to go to my doctor for a referral. He said sure but he is going to tell you to loose weight, like 100 lbs.  I was ok with him telling me that.  I am in the midst of loosing weight and that's about where I want to end up.   What threw me for a loop was when the plastic surgeon wouldn't even see me or keep me on file until I loose another 118 lbs (I've lose 10.4 since June ~ Go Me!)  At first I had a pity party - bawled my eyes out - had those moments of self doubt that I would never be able to loose that weight. But then I remember Hells Yes I can do this, I can do anything I want.  Just gotta put my mind and body to work.  I am the only thing that can stand in my way on this.  No one can tell me I won't be able to do it, they can't tell me that it's going to be really hard (no shit, nothing worth while comes easy)

I have changed so much over the last few months.  I used to let my weight hold me back and not be able to enjoy life.  There are things I have never done - so I am making a bucket list of things that I have never done and things that I used to do that I gave up as the weight came on.   I am hoping to cross off one item a month.   These things used to cause me panic attacks at just the thought of doing them.  Fear of being ridiculed or of not knowing how to do it.  But no more. I am perfect just the way that I am.  I love that my body is able to do things that I never thought that I would be capable of doing.  I just love my body period.  Sure it's got a lot of curves, but it's also has some amazing muscles and a hot ass ;)

So here is my bucket list in no :
Tubing
Play catch
Golf
Play pool
1/2 Marathon
TreeGO (its ziplines, climbing and walking along the top of the tree line)
Learn to drive a 4wheeler

I am sure as the year goes on I will be adding to my list (And crossing them off)  And as for those 118LBS,  I will get there one day in the near future.  Just taking it one pound at a time!

Sadness, Tears & A little Joy

I write this post with a heavy heart after today's tragedy in Boston. I am sending all my love and prayers to the people and families affected by it. 

I swam tonight.  I needed to clear my head after all the terrible sights on the news.  I wish it could have been a run to honor them.  In my heart that's what it was.   I released my thoughts into those blue waters and had a few calming moments to myself. 

I am finding it hard to write a happy post in this aftermath.  I'm halfway through my first week of setting new goals.  My first as you know was to cut the diet pop out. Well I have done that :) No pop since Thursday afternoon!! I have upped my water intake .I am feeling great :) Less bloated.  A few headaches & some sleepiness along the way ~ but those are just little bumps in the road.

Tonight was the first night that I got to try one of my Meal Plan recipes.  I made Ginger Pork, Broccoli & Rice.  It was delicious! I will post the recipe under the recipe section tomorrow.

For now I will leave you ~ Hug your loved ones a little closer and remember things can change in a blink of an eye. Lets live a life with less regrets

XOXO