The part that I struggle with constantly is getting (and keeping) it all together. I get the fitness on track - eating falls off track. Eating on track - fitness falls off. I get so focused on one that I just let the other slide.
I KNOW what I should be eating
I KNOW what I should be doing for exercise
I KNOW....So why can't I get it together?
Here are the problems that I struggle with for my eating:
1. There are so many different eating plans out there. Hi carb, low carb, no carb, IIFYM, atkins, paleo, clean eating. It's so confusing on what to chose. And let's face it - I like food.period. Which leads me to......
2. I'm a meal skipper/binge eater....There are days that the only thing that I think about is food. About the next meal, snack or bite. There are days that I wish that I had a private chef that would make perfectly proportioned, perfectly yummy foods. I used to love to bake but I don't any longer. Why, you ask? Well, I live in fear that I wont be able to control myself and I that I will consume all the food (dishes and all)
3. Then there is my biggest struggle - feeding my family. A picky bunch they are. While my husband supports me 110% that does not mean that he is ready to eat rabbit food as he calls it.
Right now I am just trying my best to not skip meals. I try to stay away from processed food. To stay away from pop. I don't believe in good food vs bad food. If there is something that I want to indulge in then I make sure the juice is worth squeeze.
But really above all - I am just focusing on being happy.
Tuesday, November 18, 2014
Friday, November 14, 2014
An Inspiration? Who Me?
Last night I received a facebook message from a friend and in it she said that seeing my posts on fitness had inspired her to start getting active again. I immediately thought - "Who? Me?" How could I give someone else inspiration when there are days still that I am not even my own inspiration.
A year ago I never thought that I could be anyone's inspiration. You see at the beginning of this year I started on this journey of mine that was no longer about losing the weight. It wasn't about being the skinniest bitch on the block. What it was about was stopping the hateful things that I was saying to myself - believe me even the biggest bully had NOTHING on what I could say to tear myself down. By no way am I near the end of this journey but I have come a long way. I don't hate myself anymore. Now I see a strong, beautiful woman who has fantastic form at TRX ;) I am proud of what I accomplish, the fact that I don't give up as easily. That I am getting out there an trying new things - old me would have been too paralyzed by anxiety of "not doing it right" to even walk into a gym class full of strangers, let alone going there and rocking it.
All of these changes make me feel fantastic inside and out. I know that the inches are coming off (slowly), I don't keep a close track on them cause I am no longer a slave to the scale (meaning I no longer weigh myself at least 10 times a DAY - that's right, day - not month, not week - a DAY) I don't beat myself up on days that I mess up by not working out or eating properly. If something sinfully delicious is wanted - I indulge, enjoy every moment and move on. I have more joy, relaxation, patience and happiness in my life. I have less tears, anxiety and days that I want to bury my head in the blankets and not want to get out of bed.
I now go to class with no fear and worry. I am not constantly thinking - can my body even do these classes? Instead I go and I simply do.my.best. If I need to modify the move, OK - If I need to modify the modifier - OK. Really that is all we can do. Just try. Don't give up and everyday we get stronger, better and more fulfilled.
Some may not like that my facebook is filled with "brags" about my workouts, or what I am eating or how great I feel now. But if I can just let one person know that it's ok and that they can do it too and not to give up then I'm #sorrynotsorry
I used to worry constantly about how others perceived me, worried that they would look down on me because of the stuff that I share on here then I remember that someone else might be struggling with the same thing and it might help them. To hear that I am giving someone else a little bit of inspiration I was so honored and humbled. I thank that person for reaching out to me. Remember guys - you're all the reason that somebody else is inspired.
A year ago I never thought that I could be anyone's inspiration. You see at the beginning of this year I started on this journey of mine that was no longer about losing the weight. It wasn't about being the skinniest bitch on the block. What it was about was stopping the hateful things that I was saying to myself - believe me even the biggest bully had NOTHING on what I could say to tear myself down. By no way am I near the end of this journey but I have come a long way. I don't hate myself anymore. Now I see a strong, beautiful woman who has fantastic form at TRX ;) I am proud of what I accomplish, the fact that I don't give up as easily. That I am getting out there an trying new things - old me would have been too paralyzed by anxiety of "not doing it right" to even walk into a gym class full of strangers, let alone going there and rocking it.
All of these changes make me feel fantastic inside and out. I know that the inches are coming off (slowly), I don't keep a close track on them cause I am no longer a slave to the scale (meaning I no longer weigh myself at least 10 times a DAY - that's right, day - not month, not week - a DAY) I don't beat myself up on days that I mess up by not working out or eating properly. If something sinfully delicious is wanted - I indulge, enjoy every moment and move on. I have more joy, relaxation, patience and happiness in my life. I have less tears, anxiety and days that I want to bury my head in the blankets and not want to get out of bed.
I now go to class with no fear and worry. I am not constantly thinking - can my body even do these classes? Instead I go and I simply do.my.best. If I need to modify the move, OK - If I need to modify the modifier - OK. Really that is all we can do. Just try. Don't give up and everyday we get stronger, better and more fulfilled.
Some may not like that my facebook is filled with "brags" about my workouts, or what I am eating or how great I feel now. But if I can just let one person know that it's ok and that they can do it too and not to give up then I'm #sorrynotsorry
I used to worry constantly about how others perceived me, worried that they would look down on me because of the stuff that I share on here then I remember that someone else might be struggling with the same thing and it might help them. To hear that I am giving someone else a little bit of inspiration I was so honored and humbled. I thank that person for reaching out to me. Remember guys - you're all the reason that somebody else is inspired.
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