Why do I hold on to this stuff. Is it really just clothing? Yes, it's just fabric, buttons and stitches. But to me it has been so much more. Fabric woven of memories of better times, buttons that want me to stay in the past & every stitch seems to be laced with the could've should've & would've.
It has take me a long time to realize that I don't need to cling to the past. It isn't where I want to live anymore. I want to live my life wide awake, eye wide open and enjoying every-freaking-moment!
I'm trying to live my life with new rules when it comes to my clothing - If It's Not a Hell Yes ~ It's A Hell No. I want my clothes to reflect how I see myself and how I want the world to see me. And that means no more ill fitting, ripped, torn & stained clothing.
Out with the old and in with the new. I have been re-building my wardrobe from the errrr foundations up. Sexy lingerie - was my first big purchase - bottom line - I wanted to feel sexy again for me....not for anyone else. This journey is about ME.
You might think it would be easy to just chuck out this old stuff, but I've had to work through a ton of limiting beliefs about getting rid of these clothes. I thought I would share some of them with you cause if you are going through the same thing, I don't want you to feel alone. There were two types of clothing that I needed to clean out of my closet in order to move on with my life - Skinny Clothes & Clothes That Made Me Feel Like Shit when I wore them. Here are my limiting beliefs and what I told myself to overcome them.
Skinny Clothes:
- What if I get skinny again? Do you really want to be wearing fashions from 10 years ago? Your personal style has evolved since then. Plus who doesn't love to shop!
- If I get rid of them, isn't that like giving up the dream of being skinny & healthy? Just cause I throw away clothes doesn't mean that I need to stop moving or fueling my body in a way that I deserve - it's JUST clothing. They hold no power
- I don't fit right in clothes - sure some styles don't suit me but that is the same with EVERYONE
- It doesn't matter what I look like - Just because I have been married FOREVER and because I have been a stay at home mom for a long time doesn't mean that I shouldn't take the time to look good and make myself feel good.
- It fits so I better keep it - NEVER again will I wear something that doesn't stop and make me say "Damn, I loooook Goood"
- I will have no clothes left - This is one that I have really struggled with in a lot of areas in my life. Money, food (binging) and even hanging in my closet. BUT, Really???? Really????? Please see photos below. 1st photo shows about....oh lets say.....150ish items of clothing + the stuff that I had already sold this winter. 2nd photo well, as you can see my closet is still full....
That my lovelies, is the pile of clothing that came out of my closet.
(no wonder I worried that I would be left with nothing)
what you can't see in this photo are two piles in the back row that are hidden by the pile of cardigans in the from (yes, I will be attending Cardigans Anonymous in the near future)
But as you can see there are still a ton of options in my closet
This was definitely not an easy task. I have been working on it for the last month to work past all these fears. Thank god I have a wonderful support system that talk me down off the ledge...Even if they can barely understand me through the tears and hysterics when I place my favorite pair of skinny capris in the discard pile.
When I finished and took these photos ~ I felt so amazingly free. Unbelievable. Then I thought to myself - why didn't I do this sooner.....
What's holding you back?
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